1. |
The Door (intro)
00:53
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(instrumental)
Dark woods, a marshy field, a woman is pulling her way through a seemingly endless land, Blood flows.
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2. |
Self Deprecation
01:48
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Today marks the day,
the first day
it all started to fall apart.
tearing limb from limb,
reading poetry; it starts to not make sense anymore.
I don't know if I can make it through this life.
So goddamn! just let me stop,
Just let me stop!
Just let me stop!
Just let me stop!
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3. |
Thought You
03:11
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thought I was looking for something,
thought I was looking for you.
thought it was us to have, baby, I was wrong
(I was wrong)
thought it was us I wanted, baby
thought it was me who could fix this mess!
I was wrong, I was wrong!
baby...
think I love you,
I think I love you
think I love you
oh.
oh.
oh.
the love that you gave
sustained me,
sustained me,
sustained me,
baby.
don't be led astray!
don't be fooled,
babe.
babe.
babe.
can you blame it all? can you blame it all?
babe.
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4. |
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(instrumental)
A whisper of a solution, the glimmering light.
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5. |
Regular Feelings
01:54
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when your arms surround me,
I can feel at home
at last.
when your arms surround me,
I can feel at home.
In your arms
only.
only....
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6. |
Immature
03:18
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I should have known,
I should have guessed.
every morning I get up,
my bones crack, my bones break
oh, ooh.
I should have known, I should have guessed,
the old me, the me inside,
should have known,
should have guessed,
ohh
My scabs rip and tear,
it bursts,
and blood flows through
ooh
it flows
you don't know!
you don't know!
you
you don't know!
(incoherent wailing)
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7. |
Nightwalker
04:52
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you.
you could have, you.
you could have done so much better
for
me
or
you
its an unfortunate little happenstance, flesh disconnects, mind disconnects.
supported by the life-air we breathe, you and me.
we will see rivers of flesh, exposed by brutal air.
supported by the life-air we breathe, you and me.
(repeats)
THERE IS NOT SPACE FOR YOU
IN MY LIFE
IN MY HEART
IN MY HOME
IN MY MIND
YOU WILL NOT TAKE THIS FROM ME
bone after bone broken
my will supported by the need
to break free
you. will. not. come. for. this.
I have worked so hard!
worked so hard!
I-
!
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8. |
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(instrumental)
The march forward through disaster, the will to move forward, self preservation, fog, a pilgrimage, the wound becomes a doorway.
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9. |
House Fire
01:49
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I was with him when it happened.
one thing led to the next.
all so fast...
the next thing I know
surrounded by flames.
uh-oh
on and on and on and on
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10. |
Understand
01:58
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you
have me
under a spell
that you-
then I was put under it all,
it all.
but there was no reason.
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11. |
Flayed
04:02
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Flayed
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Spoken word and piano - recorded in one take, improvised.
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“I am interested in knowing what it would be like to know that I am deserving of the things I want, i think, well I know, that too often people with identities and bodies like mine become a sort of blank projection board for other peoples shame and the shame that ,you know, Society has whipped up around itself. I have become, and my body has become, the battle ground for other peoples shame, for other people to tear themselves apart. And it's not my responsibility to harbor that place within me.
So I'm wondering with you, we are wondering together, what it would be like to imagine - being allowed to exist. And knowing that we deserve to be loved, not in spite of our identity or our differences, but because of it! Because of it…because of it.
We are not different, you and I. And I cast off your shame. I cast off your shame. It is not mine! And this body is not yours to have your battle, to wage your battle, on inbetween or around. I am not yours, to project this shame. And I don't know why it's so hard for people like us to realize (things like) that! Let us imagine a space together where we know ourselves. And where we know that our identity does not have to cause suffering, that is a narrative that was invented to keep us down. Our bodies and our identities are unique, and they can cause joys, pleasures, and sensations that people will never understand, except us.
And we need to love each other, lift each other.
Hear me; and cast off That shame!
I cast off your shame.
I cast off your shame.
And know that your love is here, with us.
C’mon, let's imagine that together.”
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Terra Firma Madison, Wisconsin
"a singer-songwriter with a knack for experimental sound design"
I make
noise/music projects for myself and sometimes like to share them with you. interested in what sound can do and convey, blurring the line between song and sound.
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